Indiana: "Anything can happen. It's a long way to Delhi."

What, oh what, does the Lord have as my next step in this journey??!!  It is so hard to know.  But then again it has been hard to know all along.  All that I have been sure of is His provisions and His care for me.  He has not once let me down and has not once done anything to harm me.  It has been wonderful to watch Him unfold my world and His plans for my future.  At times I have been scared--very scared, humbled beyond belief, worn out and down right angry.  But in all of it, He’s been there.  He’s been showing me the way.  He’s been reminding me that I am wonderfully and perfectly made; reminding me He’s made no mistakes and if I continue to let go of control He will show me His way.  Of course this is the hardest thing He asks me to do--give up control.    I want to control everything, it makes me feel safe.  It’s the old adage: if you want something done right...  It is the way I live my life.  I now see this in every aspect of my life.  God continues to show me I need to not only be willing to give up control to Him, but also sometimes to others (others that care about me and won’t do harm). 

So what are the next steps for me?  I don’t know.  I can only see about 1/4 of an inch ahead of my steps.  I have been overwhelmed with taking those steps into the abyss and watching the ground form below and catch me (just like Dr. Jones!).  He has given me new opportunities with my writing and some with editing.  This career I was always too scared to really go after is slowly coming together.  To think, I let fear stand in my way for so long!!  To think, I kept chasing a carrot I didn’t even want.  To think, I kept putting myself in less than ideal situations to get it.  It makes me want to say, “Oh! The time that was wasted!”  But, I know better.  I know God has used it for His good and that I see His hand better because of it.  

Of what are you afraid?